One of the hardest things for me to do is to tell the difference between behaviors that the children have because of the abuse they went through and just their natural personality and age based behaviors. There are some things that are pretty obvious.
Climbing the counters to steal candy off the top of the fridge – age related behavior.
Grabbing a kid’s crotch at school – abuse related behavior.
Breaking toys when mad – age related.
Smearing poo on the walls – abuse related.
But what about the other stuff? Things like acting out for attention, being a know-it-all, and competing with siblings and other family members for attention. It could be related to an attachment or anxiety disorder or it could just be that’s how they are naturally. (I know plenty of grown-ups who are know-it-all attention whores and I’m sure they were born that way.)
It’s hardest with Alyssa because she is so much like me but also so much unlike me. She considers herself a small grown-up who has what it takes to take care of other people and who believes that grown-ups need to earn her respect. That’s all just like I was as a child.
Then she also refuses to do her work at school or learn things just for the fun of it. She’d rather make friends and play at school than do her part. That is so unlike me – I always wanted to please adults and impress them with my mad knowledge skills. I took control by exceeding all expectations. She takes control by manipulation then acts out when people don’t comply. I’m a perfectionist and hardest on myself. She seems to believe that people should just give her stuff because she’s adorable and smart. If I wanted something, I would figure out how to get it. If she wants something, she just takes it.
So how do you tell?